Through an informal and formal meeting it was occasion that many student. Including myself, seeing the world “English” as something very scary. Scary means English become something very difficult to be studied. Majority of the problems is in the speaking, listening, and grammatical matters. I used to have this kinds of problem also when was taught in my school. Daily, it was rarely to find who can achieve the high level of competence in major aspects of English. Firstly I personally used to think that I I didn’t like English even though I know that English was useful for me.
Further, my family and friends also only gave a slightly motivation for me to study English. The first things that open my mind to intensively leaning English is my English teacher in high school. Every time he came into my class he constantly gave an advise to develop our English capacity. While he spoke in front of class, I think why I didn’t like English? What’s the problem? My teacher is a killer, that’s the only excuse to don’t study well? One of his said that make me felt uncomfortable every minute, it was I’m a loser and afraid to knew that I am not good as my friends who have ability in English since child. I then realize that the problem comes from my self. When my mind says I have to do something to improve my English and I must do it, my mind forcing me to keep away from learn more about English because always make an excuse and kept away from it.
Even I’m not good as the others, I always love to study. Even I can’t understand well novel which I’m reading (The Twilight), I will use dictionary and ask my kind-hearted friend. She is my collage’s friend (Y…). I don’t want to type her name because it’s her privacy.^^
Now I know that I have to establish a way of knowing English. I have to push and motivate my self that by knowing English I can gain a lot of advantages, such as, can read many books which is written in English. Through the capacity of reading. I will know not only information but automatically I know broad things like culture, custom, tradition, etc. Also if I come into cyber world, English make me easy to enter in this information world easily. I can explore the world without spending much money and many times. And the important is I must know English, how to read and know the meaning. Although it‘s difficult. That must be increasing our knowledge, especially my knowledge. Studying English makes me have a lot of opportunity.
